I seem to be a glutton for punishment, because I keep allowing my ex to take advantage of me and hurt me.
I know I am the stupid one, for continuing to allow him to live with me.. With me doing things for things for him and still acting like his girlfriend.. But, he's doing the same with me, except every few weeks to a month, he replies to Craigslist ads and signs up for sex and dating sites.. because he wants to meet someone new, because he hasn't known anyone but me intimately in 5 years. Why did I make the mistake of dating someone so young and emotionally immature?
He says he's confused and doesn't know what he wants, but he says he doesn't want to be without me. Great, WTF does that mean? You want to have your cake and eat it too??
I can't stand the pain I'm going through with this vicious cycle, yet I don't know if I can stand the pain of letting him go by telling him to get out of my life if I'm not what he wants.
I wouldn't be losing much financially by letting him go, but I won't have a car to get to work, and my credit is so terrible that I can't get a car on my own and I don't have anything saved to put down for one.
I have a car I use right now, but it's his. He is willing to sign it over to me, but I need $400 to keep it. The registration is expired from last year, and now this year and I need to get it to pass smog. I can't afford a car payment, so a new car or used car really isn't an option.
I would never ask any of you for money or help, but if there is anyway anyone can help me, I'd be forever grateful.... If anyone here has a car they don't need or know someone who does who is willing to give it away to someone really needing it, please let me know. Just having supoprt from everyone would be great. I'm feeling so alone and really down right now.
I'm not worried so much about the finances or the car, as I am about my heart and whether I'm going to be OK on the other side of this.
I need a new car and a new man. Well, the car is an immediate need, the man can wait since I'm in no place to date anyone else yet.